callmecrazzy

JULY 6

Black Coffee
Diet Coke
Small Nectarine

 

 

If anyone has verizon, i would LOVE a texting buddy to keep me motivated.  just add me as a friend / message me.  I need an accountabliliy partner to keep me strong and i wouldbe more than happy to do the same for you too! <3

 yeah its only 930 but today is going to be a good day, i can feel it already.

I had to take my pain killers for my teeth today so i ate two small slives of tangerine.  What i did was i peeled the whole fruit, and divided the slices into little baggies.  2 for breakfast, 2 for lunch, 4 for dinner?  that way im only eating 1 piece of fruit!

Im planning on going for a 1 hour walk, and a 15 minute jog today.  I already stretched and did 50 jumping jacks.  I also need to do 100 situps 2 times becasue my stomach flab is unbearable.

i MUST lose weight in time for the jersey shore, july 31. oh god i must i must.  im like 112/113 and i feel like its been the same for a few days.  i feel like i got heavier casue i ate so much god damn cheese last night. bleh i hate myself

surgery went well and surprisingly i have no pain. i was planning on fasting for the next three days but the doctor told me food was a necessity with my pain medication or i would have awful side effects, and taking the pain killers just isnt an option.

today i had: 1 jello cup (10 cal), 1 mini croissant, water water water

her body is perfection, im jealous.
http://psicoanna.files.wordpress.com/2008/03/thinspo_alessandra_ambrosio_8001.jpg

please please message me, i really need support from all of you, and i would be more than happy to give some too. my mother just bought me some new notebooks, im going to use one for a new food diary and another one for as a thinspo book. i love making collages and crafts, so this should be fun.

its hard for me because im extremely social and love to be with friends and outdoors.  i hate turning down invites becasue i dont want to go out to eat or wear a bikini in public.  im leaving on july 31 for a 10 day beach vacation with one ofmy good friends and her family.  i cannot cannot cannot WILL NOT look huge in my bikini.  my friend is very skinny and that also puts pressure on me.  im worried i will non be under 100 lbs by then... GAH any suggestions? is it even possible to lose a little over 10 lbs in one month? and not just like water or muscle weight, i want the FLAB to go. asap!

does anyone else remember being a child? so carefree and naieve. when i was little i didnt care what the hell i was eating, who the fuck i was friends with.  i wasnt ashamed of my parents or insecure about the way i looked.  i was content in my own little world; satisfied with the simplist of things.

now i cant even look in the mirror with out being repulsed by my fat body.  i dread going out in jeans that squeeze my thighes. i hate the way my stomach bubbles over my pants into rolls. and i hate my ass. it isnt natural. its massive.

for the past 2 years? i dont even know how long, i have been on and off dieting.  ever since i noticed i was putting on weight, ive been trying to get rid of it.  i would diet for a week then binge for a week. then diet for two weeks and binge. im so sick of this.

recently ive been in a really good kick.  i went from 120lbs to 113lbs! yay!